Sorry about not writing for over 3 months, its not that I have not wanted to, but many things have changed in my life in the last three months, and all really fast and in a whirlwind. Now I'm slowing down and taking a breath
I left off with the news about my brother's pregnancy/engagement....but then I went to the beach to celebrate thanksgiving with the volunteers, and instead of a turkey we had fish, yet we still cooked a very typical thanksgiving dinner...just ate it near the ocean, I got closer to Peru 7 and the most memorable thanksgiving ever. Then I visited my old site and when I was with the weavers I asked how their lives have changed since forming the association and the answers put me to tears (answers: being able to buy property, save for college, renovate the house, buy medicine, buy dentures, and even having the husband respect her more), and learned that there are 3 baby girls named Lilian within the association and that they just opened up a store in Santo Domingo. I am so proud of them.
Thanksgiving jump started 2 months of partying I call: Brian's farewell (my best friend and confidant this year), Christmas, New Years, my birthday, 2 weeks in the States (visiting for my brother's wedding, but stopping over in San Diego, San Francisco and Minnesota in the meantime), and then Carnaval. Medical tests said that my dad is still cancer free a pre-Christmas gift for the family, and had an amazing time with friends, over 5 birthday gatherings in the span of 3 weeks...and found out my sister is also preggers...so I'm going to be an aunt times 2! And that is just the good news/things that have kept me going....other things have happened, leaving me emotionally drained, and thinking....now I'm reflecting, and when I reflect, I write...which makes for good times for you! Yay!
I am a little over 2 months away from ending my life as a Peace Corps Volunteer. Though most people in my group ended over a year ago, and have moved on with their lives...and probably my time is long overdue...it hasn't been until about 1 month ago that I finally was able to say "I'm ready to move on"
The question is doing what? The reason why I extended until April 15th was not only to make up for the 2.5 month emergency home leave but also to apply to be a Peace Corps Trainer for the upcoming training group, arriving in Early June. Though I feel I have a good shot at getting the position, I have to be realistic that this may not be for me, and I may not be hired. Through some unfortunate events that occurred in December/January, I have also been thinking that I may not want to stay longer and made eager to try other types of work.
Right now, though, I decided to focus on putting closure to my Peace Corps career, and using the next two months to reflect on my life in the past 3 years, to finish off projects, and to talk with people and figure out what I want to do when I'm done. I just recently started reading a Purpose Driven Life, and for someone who is not religious, rest assured, its very tough. I decided to use the as a complete challenge, to think things differently. I'm at a crossroad, so I need different ideas to pave the way. I'll be sharing experiences with friends, and am welcoming any ideas people have.
This weekend I'm going to kick start this 2 month process by updating my resume, and finishing my DOS: the Description of Service, a 2 page document summing up what I have done in the past 3 years. I've been dreading doing that in the past 3 years...and probably has been a strong reason why I have extended (that, and mango season). I've decided to turn off my TV for Lent as an extra commitment to the process, and just read, work out, meditate, write, and focus.
Lets see how I do!
Oh, in other news, for those who follow my house cat...it ended up that she was not preggers like my family thought, becoming a "feline/woman" actually just changed her personality. The next month she was in heat again. During thanksgiving, she got run over by a car, but miraculously survived, though she walks with a limp now. Our relationship, sadly, has been forever changed because on Christmas, she was welcome into my room with open arms...and peed on my bed. The next day she knew I was mad at her, and she tried to make it up to me by killing a bird and giving to me as a gift. I accepted her apology, but still will not let her into my room , she's been banned for life. I feel bad about resenting her, and not allowing her in...and I'm sure she's very confused about it